c-asselyn

2009-10-01T15:24:00.001+08:00

moved to on sugar
www.c-desirabledepravity.onsugar.com
Okay, I know i've came up with a stupid url, but what to do? I can't come up with anything so i searched the dictionary for words. Haha

2009-09-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm moving to another blog.
Still working on it though, ask me for url :)

2009-08-25T22:28:00.004+08:00

Okay okay, i know my blog's dead, like so DEAD.

Studying feels terrible, but its worse when you hand up a blank paper when you could done better

Lets see...
So many things happened, I dont know where to start and what to say ..
Hmmm, life is so unfair,

why can't we have everything? Haha
go where we want,
buy what we want,
scold who we want,
love who we want,

hate who we want,
take what we want,

beat who we want,

order who we want,

respect who we want,

BLAH BLAH BLAH

We're supposed to enjoy life ain't we?
Ha -. what Nonsense.

Can't anyone read me, i'm Bursting soon..

Oh, Charlene... Cheer up, at least I still love you.

2009-08-04T15:19:00.002+08:00

Party you head uh/ so sad!

LALALALLALALALALALALA

7's my lucky number. want to die already la...

6 months! AH!!!

time will fly... );

2009-07-30T15:57:00.001+08:00

For information, I didnt tag myself in those recent tags you've seen in my tagboard. I'm removing it. Bye

2009-07-17T22:42:00.003+08:00

Saturday night, I'm home so early today, what a waste.
I'm such a failureeee...Realised I don't excel in anything at all;
My results are bad, expecting to retain this year. (I don't want to!)
Studying didn't help much, cause my brain is .. haha,
Maybe I should pick up something .
Useless! HAHAHA.. hais....

2009-07-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

2 sticks, one mind.
i've had enough, i'm solving my problems like i always do in the past

2009-07-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

Need to rant.

I've got so much to say.. But there's just nothing coming out of my mind.
K, maybe some.. I've never had someone treat me so well.
/possible we're fated? are we going to be together in the future, or maybe this matter will make us starngers? its like a movie suddenly..

2009-07-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

I'm in such a dilemma now. So miserable, yet feel so stupid. Then feel so confised. How i wish someone can just come take over my life for one month.

I didn't know just speaking your mind for the first time without phrasing it correctly could make someone feel so down. Though I can be black-hearted and just treat it as if you never appeared in my life before, but there's this ache and sore feeling whenever I get reminded of what toook place yesterday plus flashbacks.
Am I just dumb or what, I dont know.
Okay, point is, I dont know wth I want. Its like suddenly this, then that. A while more later I feel better having none. Maybe feeling greedy and think I'll have both and decide later.
Yesterday got me thinking. Things ain't as easy as I thought they can be. I wonder how that fucking bastard can just walk away like this in the past, no sense of guilt at all. One day made me think so much already.
I felt so dumb thinking why at those times I gave up so much just to get cheated again.
Having experienced how it felt, realise times I've too didnt notice how much hurt one can make to another.
But now, I still think i'm a heartless girl.

2009-06-19T18:21:00.002+08:00

Damn boring here at Malaysia. How I wish i can just fly home now.
Shopping ain't fun at all with family members. Get fetup today+yesterday with them
Either walk away when something catches my eye or give me attitude.
Stupid fuck. Don't want to spend money than leave me in Sg luh. One skirt cost you a lot uh.

So decide to shop alone while their dining. Bitch gave me attitude again, __
Didn't buy much, back to Cousin's house after having my lunch at Secret Recipe's
I miss Singapore so much ): Miss my friends, shopping at Bugis with Charlene and Simin the other day is 100 times better than this. Although I only had $30 with me that. Haha

BITCHHHH,

2009-06-11T01:06:00.002+08:00

I'm so boreddd, I can't sleeeeep, I don't have the mood to go out now and I can't believe I didn't meet friends today.
I want to go CLUBBING. I wish that the upcoming event will reach soon. I hope they'll hold a last minute event tomorow ):

I want to dance, I want to have fun, I don't want to feel bored.
I...... don't know whats wrong with me nowadays..

2009-06-10T01:06:00.002+08:00

Hello, St.james kinda suck, whats with models walking around the stage when all we paid for is to party? Music only started around 12am. Waste of time.
Dancefloor was really really crowded. When all the songs are like sucky and people quarreling stepping on your legs like really hard when their aching already.
For $22, not worth it. Well, its okay, look forward to the 15th at the Arena. I prefer home clubs so much better, the right crowd with just enough space, correct music playing, easy to look out for friends and with NICE people there. Hhaha

I keep craving for something.. something that i dont know.
Okay, so the plan of not working during this holiday's not really working. Cause when you see your parents working their heads off and I'm just spending the money like... i dont know what.

Friday, celebrating Josie's birthday at Crystal Jade's i guess, how in the hell am i going to look for that much money with all the events going on blablahblah

Oh ya, and for photos, go to www.clzy-sangasong-lalala.blogspot.com

2009-06-06T22:32:00.001+08:00

St.James tomorrow night!
YesYesYes !!!
Hahaha, if I can, i'll upload photos :D :D
Lion dance today, so tired...

2009-06-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

My dear, my dear! Haha, i saw your blog luh stupid.
My computer's too lousy, so can't tag you on your tagboard
My handphone don't have any camera functions! So I can't upload photos too ): hint* :p
hahahah, I miss you luh, I want to go club with you again.
I want to do alot of things with you again.
One day we will again k?
ClaWdiaaa,,, hahaha

2009-05-23T04:06:00.002+08:00

Ya.. I know my blog's really boring with all these wordy posts.
Haha, I can't fall asleep! Gona look for xb later I guess.
After that chu shi! So excited, haven't went for like months already.

No school today, cause.... Tired luh.
Friend's are obsesed with with the $2 beehoon and chicken cutlet at a restaurant called "Back to the 60's" located somewhere at hoswee.
Woke up at 3pm today. Just to hope mum will be happy,
Sweep, Mop, Hanged the clothes, Look after Nice till Yen came back.
Met Yongjie at Hoswee for lan, ate, Jervoice with Caiyan and co.
And..... met Claudia and Charlene after they finished working. Slack, home. Can't sleep!

Her, Me, Them

Promise, swear, iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

Lies, Flirt, Wrong doings

Fadefadefade,

Bastard

Guess who?

2009-05-19T10:43:00.000+08:00

How i wish i could just self-declare holidays already. Not interested bout my results at all. Although I already do for most of the papers.
Fancy misunderstanding and thinking I won't want to come home anymore just because dad didn't understand me trying to say I want to stay out late and end up staying over at Grand's

June hurry! Need to club like mad! Need to catch up with friends! Need to work for money! Need to start overrrr!

[Edited]
Maybe I can.............
Haha, just finished doing housework ayeee
Sweeping the floor, clearing the dust and mop mop mop.

Blasting songs like mad now.
I missssssssssssssssssssssss youuuuuuuuu

2009-05-17T20:16:00.003+08:00

I like grandpa :D Cause he gave me money . Hahaha
I sound so bad. I'm so bored... I don't want to leave Singapore, really don't want to go!
Somebody help me......... Go steal my passport or whatsoever ,,,,,,, Gogogo !

2009-05-17T19:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Grandpa.
Lol, how stupid. I feel so filial and obedient to come over to grandma's. When everybody has finished celebrating and gone home. I want to stay in Singapore during the school holidays ); sad

2009-05-14T21:23:00.001+08:00

My dog just swallowed a whole drumstick bone from the dustbin and cry and cry like she's going to die.
Haha, suddenly just vomit the whole bone out. damn disgusting. And guess what. She still wants to eat it.

Happy (: (: (:

2009-05-11T22:56:00.002+08:00

Well, I expected to fall. Who'll thought it'll be this easy. I'm well (:
Although Mother's Day ain't that joyful. Getting into lockup as well. At least its way better then feeling sadsadsadsad .
I like yesterday a lot. Being woken up by that Charlene at 8am and walking over to her house. Gambling, winning $$ and to the lanshop. Dining at Griller's and usual chatting/ slacking and all for a short perioud of time before heading back to the lan shop for L4D with group of friends.

Reaching home at 9. Sneaking out at 12 again with x.b to Jasper's party. Happy Birthday btw (:

My love, Avriel met me today! Accompanied me to TiongBahru till about 8 before she came over to my place. She freaking slam the toilet door on my dog's leg, cause my dog's too active -. Thats her reason for being afraid. Haha, dinner with mother and siblings after that while Avriel went home.

2009-05-09T19:27:00.000+08:00

So, Sili's house after school yesterday, Grandma's today.
Aunt brought siblings and me for shopping.
Didnt bought much stuff, except for a bag at U.R.S? Not really sure if i spelt it correctly.
Gona study later? I guess, lol (:

2009-05-08T17:15:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to say, do now..
I know I've disappointed time and again, ..
Hope my results will be, good?
/i feel so confused, i don't know the reason that i'm here in this world anymore. its like, not much difference without me.

2009-05-02T13:40:00.001+08:00

Can't say "B, I'm awake, are you?"
Lonely mornings, or should say afternoon.
Claudia, Charlene, Simin, Gladys, Sili, Josie, Yongjie, hurry wake up ):
I need to talk

2009-05-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

Found myself asking and asking again.
I wake up like a corpse, sleep with dreams I hope I'd never wake up from.
Flashbacks keep coming.
Valentines, questions I always wanted to ask.
I'm sorry, can't trust you enough to satisfy.
You wanted time to forget, I gave you time.
I was so disappointed in first anni.
Zouk. When I thought everythings gona be over, I was ready. really ready.
But you came back like nothing happened. How can you ignore me for 2 days and then ....
Remember when you said if you never came out?
Asked me to find someone else better, forget about us..
I thought it'd be easy, but I still can bear to drop this relationship that I wished for every birthday, every shooting stars, everything that could be wished for.
I accompanied you there, watching the last of you, I'll wait here, ...
But you came out. So happy, you said you'll treat me better.
Yeah, guess you did, for 3 or 4 days. Then forget that even happened before..
"Ru guo ming tian ke yi chu lai..Wo.. yao dui ni... Hen hao.."
Seeing those dreamy eyes of yours, I smiled (:
You didn't keep your words.
I watch you walking towards the end of the cliff, Don't go, don't go. I always say in my mind.
Didnt dared to say anything, how am i supposed to stop you.

"Forget, not worth, not worth it at all."

2009-04-30T17:09:00.002+08:00

I really need to club. So stress siallll.....
So after Paper 1 for Chinese, spent the last one hour sleeping and dreaming of I don't know what.
Mother says its okay for me to cool down for a few months from school and all. So shocking.
Any news of clubs tonight? Tmr night? The night after tmr?

2009-04-29T21:21:00.003+08:00

I'm crawling, crawling, crawling. Cause I slipped today evening.

$27 per month, three of us, sehkahs, /mummy don't want me, dieter don't want me );
Currently looking for jobs, any intros ? (:
Chinese MYE tmr, CONFIRM FAIL. hahahahah...

5th, and last Goodbye

2009-04-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

Climbing out, on the way out. I'm not falling, don't want to fall again.
Hold them back, be brave. It'll all be over soon.

English MYE tmr, I hope I can cope. Want to have a good rest today. Made a decision today, unbelievable one. I /hope i won't break down. Think back, been happening for so many times.
Don't want to be the one being drowning in tears time and again.

/I'll miss you, so much .
i want to let go, please....

2009-04-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

I really feel like stabbing all those fucking people around me that i hate so much again and again with a knife. Like what the fuck's wrong with you people man. YOU are giving me damn cold shoulders again and again with no fucking reasons. How are supposed to continue. Yeah, go on with all the stuff you can while i just can watch and not do anything. I'm always in the wrong, ALWAYS.
WHY WHY WHY must EVERYONE of you critisize each other over and over again. we split up, get together, split up. hate each other. Where am i suppose to stand now ?
Stop giving me fcuking calls and then suddenly appearing in front of me.
I really really hope you would just shut that damn offensive mouth of yours. You're repeating again and again. Not happy ah, Fucking DISOWN me and throw me out. I hate you, to the coreeeee.
All i can do is tahan, tahan, tahan. I'm gona burst someday!
I'm so confused,
Someone I love and trust so much turn out to be hating me all along.
Right, they were correct two different world, i'm/ useless, belong to the rubbish dump
I don't know what the hell's between us, not progressing. Suddenly felt nothing, then thing you're really important. Why, are you alwasy like that! / b, i can't be myself around you, i'm sorry! i don't know how to socialise, i feel so odd with your friends! Another fucking incident just happen today,
dont want to lose you, feel like i can do it without you, think i'm gona die without you, think i lost out too much because of you, ........./ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! YET I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S IN MY MIND NOW! BaBY! SORRY,
Think i'm gona drop, confirm gona drop. can't climb up like the others can, can't....
try my best, nobody's seeing that, stop scolding me!
Cs, can we back together like last time again. can't you all remember when we could run around with each other and laughing at stupid stuffs again and again. Can we start understandign each other and stop all the hating.

i'm gona die, die! i can't breathe! i'm stabbering! shaking shaky! @#$%^&
don't want to die, i want to start over );

Healthyyyyy Fooooood

2009-04-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, woke up today without even realising its the afternoon already.
Soooo... Clawdia, Caiyan and Cynthia at TiongBahru. Down to Vivocity to meet Zairong, Jeremy and co. Saw Francita! Mygod, missed her so much.
Wanted to catch a movie at first but all had Dinner at Ljs' instead. Slack talk and all while watching the sea!~~
Really hope the holidays would come fast ): Hate school manzxzx, I wana highlight my hair.... Either Orange, pink or Red? hahahaha,
Okay, so back to usual place, Tabitha was there. Joke around and took pictures, if only my com's not lousy, could have upload the photos );
So they went home one by one leaving me and Caiyan, Charlene came over, had girls' talk ;D
Home at about 11 :D :D

Another thing, event on 30th cancelled !!!!!! MYGOD!
Cause they can't find any place to rent -.
Wonder whens the next event ):

Stabbed.

2009-04-24T22:37:00.004+08:00

So, about today!
Reason for not attending school, some bastard stole my school shoes and I don't have any spare ones.
"Somebody" ah.. came and look for me. Had lunch at Merah's Pizza Hut! Pizza and Baked rice! Walked around to digest and went back home.

Rest for a while before meeting Baby at Redhill, head down to Jurong for prawning? Baby failure luh, others catch so much he caught 2 prawns only. Haha, till about 7plus, cab down to redhill again. Went seperate ways.
Down to Heights to look for my girls! Haha, Caiyan, Clauwdia, Simin and Gladys., together with some others.
Talked and gossip before home at 10plus.

2009-04-24T10:32:00.002+08:00

Kay, no school today. Bestfriend is at my house.
Gona go downstairs for meal later,
Post again later! haha

2009-04-24T00:47:00.002+08:00

Just came back for selling Walls ice cream. Like damn tiring manzxzxz. Guess what, I earned $10. Fancy walking door to door and have people just waving their hands and we go "Oh, thank you (smile)" over and over again. Like giving out fliers last year and having to smile and say " Please take one (:, Thank you" Okay, point is, NOT EASY TO EARN MONEY!

So how bout taking up another part-time job at Subway with friends? Guess we'll just quit 2 or 3 days later.
Just found out motorcycles can be bought at thousand two, as in that kindof nice models luh, thought was 5,6 thousands previously.
Uh! I'm so bored, don't feel like going school tmr, but what to do? Exams are coming and even better, there's and event next Thursdau before Labour Day.

We should enjoy ourselves clubbing first then studying hardcore at home right? Yeah right, who will believe that.

2009-04-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

In need of cash! Haha, will be working with Claudia, Caiyan and Simin tmr at Chua Chu Kang selling door to door ice-cream :D
I still remember doing that at Crescent with Yongjie and co. last year. Quite fun luh, but not when people go slamming doors at you.

Think there'll be an event on the 30th! Looking forward to it! hahahaha

So, went home today after that damn Physics test. Nothing much today.. Trying to fill my mind up with nonsensical thoughts.
HAHAHA , so lame -.

2009-04-22T16:15:00.002+08:00

Maybe being sarcastic's okay, but maybe too much of it's gona get really irritating. Like, ohmygod, sometimes I wonder why you're two different persons. So nice and all then suddenly cold and mean the next day.
Nice one, taking the last of my money and then walking away to your friends acting like you don't know me at all.
Well, nevermind. Is it me always doing the wrong things or me thinking that I'm starting to not like you/ in fact, sometimes i really hate you
& Wtf, getting angry over small stuffs, giving me such hurting remarks? Hey, maybe I'm being over-sensitive but you're doing this over and over again.
Now? Trying to snatch stuffs away from each other? How I wish I can just ignore and treat like you were NEVER THERE

2009-04-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

Love's so weird, what i always wished for previously did came true, and not what I really want now.

My body's acting weird nowadays, suddenly i feel really active, then i feel like sleeping. After that i get this real headache. And then I'm fine later on.
Met baby today, chat and all at his house before heading to Redhill market. Nothing much to post about. I hate how my father's treating me ):
Just did some of the coursework, think will be able to finish it by tomorrow.

Should i get a job? Or maybe see how it goes after mother agrees to the $100 deal? Haha, just afraid i won't be able to cope with everything if i really get a job.

2009-04-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

Been few days since i post. Haha, cause I'm busy right? Oh, anniversary!
Caught Shinjuku Incident at Vivocity with Baby and co.
Lazy to elaborate. I made muffins okay! Thanks for the soft toy B. :D
Have done 'wrong things' nowadays. Don't like the after effects, wish I can find better stuffs to do.
I feel like I'm disappointing people. Hahaha,

Now, there's this one t ing i want to do. Learn to be satisfied! Wonder who in the world can be able to do that. hurhur... Okay, just want to learn to be more satified with precious I have now.

2009-04-10T17:22:00.002+08:00

KEEP ON TOK-ING @RUPEEEEEEE ROOM yesterday night :D
Mum agreed after some quarrels. Hahahaha.

So I went home after school to get changed and rest till about 5. Mum came back, gave me money and went to TiongBahru to meet CLAUWDIA.

Happy Birthday Vernon :D

Such a pity I can't upload photos from yesterday. Fact is, I didn't even took any. Rupee Room was packed with people yesterday. Baby didn't came in ):
Party ended at about 3 in the morning. Went to some pub at BoatQuay with Claudia, Eugene and Fire to meet babbbbyyy :D
Reached home at 6 ^^

2009-04-08T20:49:00.004+08:00

Its like I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL'S IN THE MIND OF THAT TWO PERSON.
I'm feeling damn frustrated, wasting my time and sacrificing time for my love to stay at home hoping that I'll fufil your fcuking needs. Yet you just keep quiet all the way till the night when its obvious I won't be out already then answering me with a straight NO.Eh, please. If you FAIL to realise I'm trying to respect you as much as i can. Satisfy everything that you want, then don't blame me for not doing so in the future.
Stop threatening me with your same old methods. I'm sick of them already. I can't even have fun in the night ONCE IN A WHILE. Wtf, you make it like I'm going every single day .

2009-04-04T09:21:00.002+08:00

Yay! Mum and sisters are at Malaysia :D Quite shocking that mother didn't force me to go along with them.

Next event on 9thApril @RupeeRoom :D Damn excited siaaaalll.. Hope mum and dad ALLOWS. Thinking partying will be different already, cause.................................. hahahaha

Okay didn't attend school yesterday, found out Sili was at home. So walked over to her house and slack till about 1plus before going home to get changed.
Bus down toTiongBahru,met friends and to ViviCity to catch TheUnborn.
After that , back to Tiong park. Went to baby's house, then to redhill market and home.

2009-04-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

Back from eating at Zhou's Kitchen with Josie and Sili. I'm feeling damn full manzxzx.. I still can't get why i can't upload photos, all my posts sound so boring.. anyway can go to www.xanga.com/beneathawillow for more info, think Sili will upload photos and stuff later on.

Camp was REALLY BORING for me cause Josie and Sili didn't go. So i begged father to come fetch me second day. watched him fish for about 3 hours before going home.
Soon after I reached home, TIONG BAHRU to meet with friends and bbabbbyyyy ~ hahaha. Mahjong at Jeremy's house and home sweet home at about 12 :D

2009-03-29T16:32:00.003+08:00

I'm at Sili's house now (: Okay, fnished HALF of my coursework already. The information like scatered all over.. Not ready for camp yet. hahaha,

2009-03-29T13:10:00.001+08:00

CALL ME

2009-03-29T12:44:00.002+08:00

I'm stressing over camp and coursework, help me! I wonder who I would miss the most during camp..
I overheard parents talking about moving house yesterday, hmm.. I don't know what to say/i friggin don't get why you can't UNDERSTAND minds of teenagers like us. when we are already trying TRYING so hard.. You're not giving me anything. instead, taking everything a
I feel so lost and confused/baby, stop all those stuffs will you? URGH! whatever

2009-03-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

Back from boring day. Uh, how i wish days could get more interesting. Yongjie just called me saying they'll be at HendersonWave later, should i sneak out and go ?? Hahaha..

I brought Nice out today (: Quite troublesome though. She looked scared and all going through bus rides, being carried in a bag. Haha, so i brought her home some time after we reached TiongBahru. Was afriad she'll get sick or something..

I'm YEARNING for the next event manzzxzzxzxzxzxzx ... WHEN IS THE NEXT EVENT, TELLLLLL MEEEEE !

And really don't understand friends. We're breaking away, starting to hate each other.. blahblahblah/ GUYS, they're the reason right. Well, thats what i think. urgh! I don't like school... I don't like having nothing to do... I don't like being poor... I don't like homework... I don't like losing contact... I don't like............................ you not understanding anything.. Guess i don't tooooooooooo

2009-03-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

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2009-03-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

Just reached home. went to some pub with friends just now. Had to walk rounds and round before we found where that damn pub was at. Couldn't stay for long due to some ... SOMEBODY got darn drunk, hahahahahahahahahaha :D

MaxPavilion was enough for me already, so. I just had 1, 2glasses (:
Found out that there's nothing inside the thumbdrive M.JaneTan gave me, coursework how sia! And then there's camp this coming Monday. Please luh. we're like 15 already and they don't allow devices, like. HANDPHONE -.

I'm not ready for camp , not ready for anything or maybe everything. STRESS! Guess you all don't get what i can stress over. Well, you're not Casselyn, how would you know ?

2009-03-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

Hello! Have been watching quite a lot of movies lately (:
Just caught Legend of ChunLi with Baby just now :D haha.

Real sorry for not being able to uplooad photos, feeling lazy to dig out the cable and all. English oral today, because of NgSili, we nearly missed the exam being late. Glad that school's starting late tmr (:

Oh ya, MY DAD BOUGHT ME AND SISTERS NEW DOG !! Its damn cute lu, but think wouldn't look that cute when it grows older. Toy poodle :D hahahaha
Sisters gave it damn weird name, ' Nice'. hahaha, whatever luh. But Nice really gets noisy at night when everyones asleep. Will post pictures when i can k, :D

2009-03-23T18:31:00.002+08:00

MaxPavilion suck. with so little people and the tickets selling at $20.
Don't feel like elaborating. haha
I'm totally NOT in the mood for school ):

does the love gets lesser and lesser when time goes by/

2009-03-22T21:26:00.002+08:00

What am i supposed to do now? you're not accepting my apologises.. I've got no idea whats on your mind now. Don't know what happened yesterday, stop asking me questions, i really dont know! Stay, please stay..

2009-03-20T00:56:00.003+08:00

EVERYBODY'S AT ST.JAMES DANCING THEIR HEAD OFF AND I'M HERE ROTTING AT HOME CAUSE MUM DOSEN'T ALLOW ME TO GO FOR I DON'T KNOW WHAT REASONS :(

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at least i went for Zouk? i hate mum
okay since i'm so bored. i'll blog about the past few days

Accompanied baby to clementi to report. So relieved when i saw him walking out. Thought something was gona happen. That bastard's not afriad of anything, asking for more when he came out fine. So back to TiongBahru, met friends and down to CityHall to return cousin her ezlink card. Then back to plaza, usual stuffs and home at about 11plus i think.
Caught 'Marley and Me' with Cluadia today .

AWW... I WISH I WAS AT ST.JAMES NOW !!! CAN'T SEEM TO SLEEP NOW.. THINKING ABOUT ALL THE FUN... HMM ..

2009-03-14T13:49:00.002+08:00

what's the meaning of ignoring me and walking pass me like i'm invisible to you . then telling me you're busy and all when ... why do you always make me so confused .

ZOUKKKKK tommorrow ! hahaha , i'm like damn excited now (: before that will be lion dance in the morning :D I hope tommorow would be fun , not like every boring days . Looking , missing , wanting, come here comehere ! Accompany me my dearest ! but no ... So near , yet , so far ..

2009-03-12T13:25:00.001+08:00

i'm in some com lab in school now . have to listen to recordings of people reading and comment on it , something like that . and i'm feeling like damndamn sleepy now .
and another thing , 1 month tommorow !!
hahahahahaha , gtg already bye !

2009-03-11T10:41:00.002+08:00

in school now (:
mum allows me to go for ZOUKKKKK !~ hahaha , found out that Butterfactory's for 18 and above . Afraid i'll be bounced out for some reasons . i'm really looking forward :D 2 months since the last event . Recess soon , bye (:

2009-03-09T16:32:00.004+08:00

okay , got no idea how long time ago these pictures were :

boring , boring , boring .

Jerome on friday after cross country with the school . Felt damn sweaty and disgusting , home , change and cab to fareast . grandma gave me $20 for birthday ! (:

haha , spent it all on thursday thinking there's lion dance tmr which means more $ . but was cancelled due to big rain ): So i'm like damn broke now ..

And butterfactory on the 20th , mum allows me to go (: haha , only that i have to accompany her to malaysia on the 15th which's Zouk . my god , wasted . k ., guess i'm staying at home today .

2009-03-03T20:28:00.002+08:00

yea , know i've not update for al long time . so many things happened ! and i dont know how to phrase them all here . i'll have to go for 6 months counselling from i dont know when . what to do ? paying back for what i've done wrong ):
so what now , you're here , now there and back to me . uh ! i feel so confused now .. true , lies , flirt , fuck , play , being not reasonable , whatwhatwhat !
tanglin tomorrow and maybe my turn to show . hahaha , guess you all can't understand a thing i'm trying to say .
January , till ?
Everything you do , i will know !
Remember those times ?
Once , twice , thrice , now the fourth
Many disagreed
Everytime , we'll start doing things without thinking

2009-02-26T20:05:00.003+08:00

babybabybaby ...
i'm feeling veryveryveryvery stress now ! help me please ..
who am i to you ? what are we for ? why am i so useless ? how am i suppose to face you , her , them !
something thats suppose to turn out good made you make the worse out of it . making me promise you not to do stuffs that you yourself is able to . in front of me ! you know how my heart breaks seeing you like that ? you know how much doubts and questions i really really want to know ? was i lucky , unlucky or stupid . am i nothing , too good at treating like nothing happened ? are games more important .. take it for once , comes the second time . promising me never , but how am i suppose to believe you ! whoes lying, whoes speaking the truth , how would i know ! i wasn't there , i didnt see anything . were they lying ? i don't want to continue ! but would i regret again . i've been waiting so long for this . but why must you do this kindof things ! i feel so angry , yet i'm not able to show it at all . friends and all , its not fun , not at all.. where where where whereereererereererererererere ,.!#$#@$
its my fault , my fault . sorry , if i havent gone around making trouble . i would be there with you that day , nothing would have happened right ? my fault right right ! why her ? not them , others . why make me look so bad , BAD why !

2009-02-23T20:53:00.002+08:00

B : take it fun
C : i don't put the blame on you . just have your own will next time
D : disappointed , what am i suppose to feel for you ?

So many people disappointed me . especially D . to think i actually used my money trying to makeup for breaking my promise . you actually did something so ...
should i let it go , close BOTH eyes and continue . or should i do what's clever and leave ...

Baby said he would fetch me from school today . but that bastard overslept and forget . Charlene and Amanda was outside my school waiting for me at about 12.50pm . so met them and went to our usual place . After that , went over to baby's house to meet him and went to VivoCity . till about 6 , to Hoswee and ate . blahblahblah and home .

2009-02-22T12:27:00.002+08:00

haha , see the difference between dead flowers and the ones that are like 'new' ? i'm trying to make dried flowers from those that dearest gave . sorry for not rotating the pictures , i dont know how to do it from my computer .
i'm bored , dont think i'm going out today again . and its only like 12 plus !

2009-02-21T22:57:00.001+08:00

i stayed at home for the whole day today , hope that i'll be able to go out tmr ): i miss D .

2009-02-21T16:23:00.002+08:00

we did so many things we've did out of fun , temptation and all . people adviced us , said we'll ruin ourself by doing this , but we didnt give a damn . so what ? we thought we were just doing it for fun .
till yesterday , when we were all caught and there's no more way for us to turn back ..

mum and dad , i'm sorry . i know i've disappointed both of you time and again . whatever you decide to do to me this time , i think i will have to just go along with it . i knew you cared for me , but i did things without thinking of consequences ..

claudia and charlene . they might prevent me from meeting the two of you again . i just have to say sorry . i really dont know what will happen next . i really love the two of you alot . we might have negative thinkings of each other everytime . claudia , i admit talking bad about your attitude and all before . i'm sorry .. seeing the two for you cry and all yesterday makes my heart really ache . please dont do anything stupid to yourself again okay ? lets all quit sniffing glue okay ...

baby ... i thought you would have definately leave me yesterday . i thought you would not forgive me already . thanks for everything . i know i lied to you , not once but twice . i dont know what will come next . you're someone that i really really love alot and for so long .. i always kept in my mind , i didnt believe you .. i dont know how to explain everything now . just want to apologise for lying to you and i love you (:

2009-02-20T11:03:00.002+08:00

some pictures of the last event i went that was like .... i dont know how long ago

2009-02-19T17:41:00.002+08:00

Hello , i'm at the lan shop at ho swee with claudia , D! and friends . hahaha .
Stupid disappoint me . I got into a fucking stupid case , and i really hate my discipline mistress . please get all your facts right before shouting at me like some dog . you're fucking biase , cb .

2009-02-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

guess i took i risk ,big one . sorry for not updating :D
i just got home after a really tiring day , waiting for D!'s reply .
school sucks , cause i dont like to wake up early and sleep late , eye bags are showing !
happy valentine all , andandand ... i love you dswf (:

2009-02-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

should we give up all we have now just thinking of the negatives ? or just move on remembering the positives ?
adoring people around us , doing nothing . i know you can't get what i mean . its just that ... i feel so confused by everything revolving now ..

2009-02-08T23:53:00.002+08:00

k , i know its been quite some time since i post already , here are just some overdued pictures

i know my blogskin sucks .work on it some time later

&i finally completed my coursework ! like kindof comepleted it luh . haha

2009-01-25T14:02:00.002+08:00

hahaha , yesterday's vevnt at Old School was fucking fun !
yeah , i'm going to malaysia with family today . sad ~
it's confirm gona be real boring there , i'll be back in about three days i think
i'm gona miss all of you ! :D

2009-01-22T13:47:00.002+08:00

hello , didn't attend school today . moodswing ~
all thanks to my father , he called and scolded me for nothing yesterday , and keep saying the same old thing -.- then he just went off with to fetch my sister to school leaving me at home not knowing . __
i don't have any money right now , and i'm freaking hungry .

2009-01-20T08:33:00.000+08:00

long time since i post . haha , my com at home broke down !
i'm now at school , in some kindof computer lab haveing geog class . its fcuking boring and i don't understand anything . i'll try to upload some photos next time (:

2009-01-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

chocolates , flowers , earrings , necklace , .. i've got nothing left already

2009-01-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

2nd day of school today , i wonder what'll happen tmr for chinese :x

went to somewhere near bugis to get school books before going home .

change , bathed , got ready and ...

ain't continue-ing .. tmr's special , will you remember ?

been 1 year ..

2009-01-03T16:04:00.001+08:00

sorry for not posting nowadays .
school has started already and its really boring . at least sili's in the same class as me (:
btw , i'm at charlene's house now .
going out later on ..

2008-12-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

i'm gona break the promise , i've broke it already .

sorry i didnt keep my word , cause i felt you didnt too .

is it that fun to joke around with what i feel for you .

oo , you're such a disgrace already , not to mention why .

2008-12-25T20:51:00.004+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

okay , this year's christmas feels really weird though . yesterday at Popourri's or whatever its called . the music's really soft ~ not much pictures .

2008-12-21T15:50:00.003+08:00

people ! i'm at malaysia now , will be back on the 22nd (:
good thing i bought ciggs yesterday , i wonder how would i be able to survive here .
next event on the 24th , all age , who wana come ?! hahas
school's reopening and i havent bought my books yet , ./
i dreamt of you , damn it -.

hey , if thats for me , you should be the one knowing your limits ./

2008-12-13T10:53:00.000+08:00

photos for the pass few days , at claudia's house now /

2008-12-11T22:52:00.002+08:00

stupid mushroom head -.

great world with parents and sister today , boring .

there's another event at 16th i think .

see you there :D

this is a another retake of my life , or is it ?
i made my promise , would you be back if i keep it ?
how could you fade in just two three days ?
was i just used as a companian for boring days ?
or was i too sensitive and all , which cause you unable to tolerate ?
action speaks louder then words , you gave up before i even got to prove anything .
i tried twisting and turning my whole life , trying to match yours .

your someone special , that i choosed to love for so long , so much .

2008-12-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

phew , i just finished linking everyone thats supposed to belinked long long time ago . i kinda forgotten what happened this few days .

gotham penthouse seemed fun , but i failed to get in ! so , feeling shag and all , refunded the tickets whilst waiting for the the event to finish . went to have our breakfast with peiqi , foongsze , sili , angel and claudia . home after that , sili came over my house till next morning .

2008-12-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

yesterday's Pellucid's Poison , not much photos .

just had my breakfast , going home soon (:

2008-12-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

hi , i apologise for not posting this few days . dont have the mood to actually
living life like there's no life , wandering around the same old places .
wake up bathe , eat , get a call , went out , came home , sleep .
i missed those times when that someone made my days so wonderful and precious .
why did you ever had to leave me , i really dont understand . i might be too naive and stupid to ... when i already had everything i wanted .
hmmm ..

2008-11-28T04:22:00.000+08:00

hmm ... i'm at home now and i feel so alone , someone call me and chat ):

yesterday went to pulau ubin with jiande , jeremy , aizai , claudia , weijie , nico , yongjie and two other guys . met at tiong at about 9plus before heading down to changi village took the boat over and rent bikes .

jeremy , aizai and jiande cycle super fast . my leg ached like hell when i reached home . i dont have the photos , cause my phone sucks , dont have bluetooth or camera -.-
started raining halfway through , they wanted to set up a shelter or something but in the end still went to the nearby shelter . jeremy started fishing later on while the rest of us rest or tried throwing the fishing thing .
me and claudia caught a half dead catfish ok , using plastic bag . but then in the end they tortured the fish to death using rocks , ha .

took ferry back at about 7 ? went to OCH ~ yongije they all bastard ! my first time walking around the whole of OCH , quite scary luh .. depends on your mood actually . haha , went down tiong slack slack a while before father came and fetch me home .

& then today , went to jeremy's house to find yongjie and co. yongjie went home to take money after that and parents brought me to sakae to eat ! hahas , my first time okay . cause got voucher , if not you think i'll be able to enjoy eating japanese food ? k .. so after that met yongjie and friends . slack slack , do the usua stuffs and home

i miss you . real much

right now , i still cant understand what got into you

yea , i changed a lot i guess

nevertheless , i love/loved you

2008-11-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

i feel like the worse is going to happen again . i'm sorry taking up your time.

yours in this life ..

2008-11-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

i just randomly upload this few pictures . claudia stayed overnight at my house yesterday . half of the family is still at malaysia .

we're gona something bad later .. muahahahaha !

2008-11-19T02:18:00.001+08:00

i'm back at home (:
hahas , went to meet my dearest right after i reached sg . i thought dad wouldnt allow at first
but i still went anyway .. hahas
ate abit at xintua before going to his house . waited for him to bathe and everything . watched tv for a while before he send me home :D
iloveyou !

2008-11-16T17:36:00.000+08:00

hello peeps , i'm at malaysia now . hahas , and i miss dietersoonweifeng alot ! its really boring here ):

2008-11-16T02:26:00.000+08:00

greatest's angry . i dont know what to do . i'm sorry , pls dont be angry can ? i really love you alot . i promise i wont meet them again , pls ? baby , i'm sorry . pls dont be angry . PLEASE

2008-11-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

back from my love's xintua ! hahas , today went over to his house to meet him before eating at nearby hawker centre . then he helped out at xintua . at about 8plus chusai at somewhere near great world . ate and after a while home (:

work tmr , i'm kinda lazy -.

2008-11-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

sorry for not posting this few days , i've been out with dearest !
monday at tiong , tuesday went to his sintua
wenesday he send me for my first day at work

today , bus over to his house before going to tiongbahru .
at about 4 , went over to his sintua again till 12plus .
hahas , i love him really much yeah !

wont have pictures uploaded nowadays , sorry
and another thing , i'll be leaving to malaysia on the 15th and back 3days later
i'll miss you

2008-11-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

wah... sian

very long since i updated . i dont have my phone now . so no pictures , cause my current phone dont have camera -.-

i'm so confused and frustrated . something i've waited for so long finallu arrived . but it just dosent seem right , how is it gona feel later on , i'll post today again .

love and misses ~

2008-10-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

missymissy ..

why did i ever picked up that phone so long time ago . give you a call and asked you out . if your someone with a character that you are never ever gona realise how you'll lose trust in everyone you have , i really wished that i didnt know you from the start . yes , i said it was normal to gossip about other people . but not to the extend of telling every single people you see on the road . ' she's so cheap and disgusting . fat and ugly . she'll be able to do anything you want her to do , just give her a stick ' i felt like fucking you upside down when i heard that . duh , i thought i was someone important to you . it seemed that you've badmouthed almost everyone you know . but i didnt expect you to say that about me . hey , no wonder how your classmates act upon you . i know you'll be angry reading this but . seriously , dont you think your too much ?

2008-10-28T13:17:00.001+08:00

later gona catch a movie with ng sili . haha

yesterday stayed at home for the whole day . avriel came over at night to pei me :D i've been trying to learn this stupid somersault thing which caused ache all over me , uh ~

dont use words i taught you to get back at me

stabbing people from the back ain't nice

i thought you'd change

but , nevertheless . you got worse my dear

i didnt believe what you actually did

i guess that's just you , naive

you should try and turn back before you regret eh ?

2008-10-25T16:31:00.000+08:00

yen left for malaysia this afternoon with cousin . happybirthday btw :D

so there's not really anyone at home . so mother asked me to bring xuan out . i brought her to bugis and did my french manicure (: turned out okay , but i was careless and destroyed part of it .. lols . the china woman that did my manicure was damn rude lah . i feel so rich nowadays , haha .
ate macdonald with sister and kindof walked around bugis junction . then i went down to tiong bahru for a while and back home

pictures !

tabitha called me just now . i think i'm gona go down lot1 to look for her later . but then very far leh ~

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edited :
all the way to jurong point to meet tabitha and qingshun just now . slack slak , play play , drinkdrink , eateat . money ! home :D

2008-10-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

okay , for today ? i went to dye my hair at kimage , took me 3 long hours . turned out okay . i bide goodbye to mother and made my way down to tiong bahru . saw carlito and timmy by coinsidence and went to buy cigg ? then said hello to the others outside tiong mac before going to think tank to get my second nose piercing . i regreted not listening to the guy the place to pierce . the new nose hole is just too close to each other . maybe i'll let it cloase and pierce another one ?

so , cheryl called me and i met jiahui at old changi . took bus 16 down to town and met cheryl and her friend . they looked for jobs around there . sili was at cineleisure so we met them . went down to safra for a game of pool . after that , went down to the manicure shop to have thier nails done . i wanted to have french manicure too , but they were closing already ):

today was fun , SILI . SEE THIS ? I LOVE YOU TOO :D
oh ya , maybe i'll be meeting ahkang tmr !

2008-10-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

hello , people . friend. i saw your blog , i've read your msges . i guess you just dont get why i'm acting like this . i know i have my wrongs too , but dont you think sometimes your too much also ? your words are always so insulting and hurtful , but you never realised at all . i've tried and tried to understand and know you are who you are . but , people have their limits too . i dont expect you to like change and anything , i just wanted you to know how i feel . but i guess you didnt understand at all . quarrels and everything broke out between us , i was apologising most of the time . you like to embarrassme so much in front of other people , seriously . i hate that to the core . once or twice is okay . but somehow it happens almost everytime i see you . videos and things are taken , maybe i'm okay with it , BUT YOU ALL GO AROUND SHOWING IT TO EVERYONE THINKING I DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ! wtf , when i said i'm not angry , not irritated , do you think i would admit and stuff like this that i am ? have i ever got angry in front of you before ? you could actually do something so hurting and disturbing that i could not hold back my tears . i've thought many times before , worth it going out with all of you ? or am i just lowering my place and throwing my damn face away . think , how people treated me before and after . your always hitting me and stuff , i dont react to it , you do it more . you think its fun ? you scolded me time and again , i tolerated . you go around telling everyone about my negatives , i jusrt smiled and laugh along . i accidentally burnt you , and you would want to just hurt me back , an eye for an eye ? we've been through things together , but i dont think you understand me enough , really . sorry ? not good enough ? do you all mean it or do you just send it and make a joke out of it . then you'll go talking bad about me behind my back . i really hope you dont . the more i hope you wouldnt spill out all my secrets i shared with you . i cherished you alot as a friend . believe it or not .. i know that i'm always pangseh-ing you all for something else , dua-ing your calls . sorry .. eating your share of food , spending your money . not returning your kindness , now .. just giving up . its not easy to admit that your writing about someone when she asks you , thats for me . sisters ? maybe not forever .

2008-10-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

thank you , i'm changing my attitude . like it or not , i dont care . cause i canot stand it anymore , oops . i'm sorry though..

finally ! the holidays are here ! hahas , i went to look for jobs today . all not very nice eh . avriel came to my house . then we went over to changi terminal 2 to look for this man . hard time finding the damn place . he said he would call us up if we're selected . then down to plaza sing to interview for another one . avriel;s uncle then came and fetch us from tiong to eat highclass food ! and listen to his advidce about several things? lols , then went down to carlito's house to look for claudia yongjie and him to slack a while and home .

2008-10-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

i'm not happy .. i really wished there was someone there i could share my shock and happiness today . i dont like my company , or whatsoever . i cant explain , wont . people who dont show anger gets bullied time after time . i hate it , but i dont know how to handle this fucking problem . please dont treat me as a toy , i have my feelings too

2008-10-22T16:54:00.001+08:00

OMFG , i promoted to sec 3 express . haha :D

2008-10-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello , i'm at home blogging . nowadays really bored . no school , look for friends , slackslack , playlan , bored then i feel like going home already . dont have the mood to stay out late . i want to go out with new people ! dont wana have daily routine , very sian . claudia called me early in the morning again . saying she ran out with school , was very tired so said i'll call her back later . then rat called me asking me to meet her .. and claudia's meeting her later . so met her at queensway . i bought studs :D have this urge to put my tougue stud back . haha
saw aizai at 2nd floor , talktalk a while and he went off le . so went to mac to have meal before going down to tiong and meet the rest . today got quite alot of people , lazy to mention . include the usuals too . theres school tmr ): i dont wana go .. i think i'm dropping to n.a. how ? haha , ending here , loves !

2008-10-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

saturday . i went out with claudia (: she called me in the afternoon . so wen tp hoswee and met her . bought our usuals and to the lan shop for audition again . bus to vivo for some entertainment and talked to lingmin and magdeline for a while before having lunch at superdog's . saw tabitha on our way back to tiong park . met carlito , nevin , zhiwei and yongjie . played catching , lmao . its exciting okay ~ till about 9 or 10 like that , they decided to go back to lan shop while i went home . father ordered pizza :D had a slice and played monopoly with sister just now .

2008-10-18T01:14:00.000+08:00

mark my words , you know your still there ..

today , many activities . no school , no point going also . disturb my sleep only . haha , brought my sister out today ! first time hur , cause rat said she bringing her brither too . lots of people went to delta swimming complex today . till about 6plus then we left the place . i think they met up again after going home and rest for a while . i brought xuan home then went to safra to loof for avriel . went to sakura to ate with her and her uncle . he sponser :x haha . we wasted a lot of food , i think . cause is buffet . the after that caught movie , eagle's eye . not bad . and uncle send us home . lazy to go on , i want to go play audition :D haha

2008-10-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

when strangers become friends , they keep each other from their negatives and unglams , then go telling someone else . when friends become bestfriends , they'll start to tell each other secrets , maybe leading it to be known by everyone or ? when time passes by , the closer and closer we get , but still many disagrees . they'll admit about all the craps and gossips they said about each other then laugh or explain out . used to those everydays together .. thinking that they cant get any closer now . but then overextimating themselves , hatred and betrayal starts to grow . cant seem to work this out anymore , bye .

" hello , last time i very close to her wan . but now hor , like fuck like that "