For information, I didnt tag myself in those recent tags you've seen in my tagboard. I'm removing it. Bye

Saturday night, I'm home so early today, what a waste.
I'm such a failureeee...Realised I don't excel in anything at all;
My results are bad, expecting to retain this year. (I don't want to!)
Studying didn't help much, cause my brain is .. haha,
Maybe I should pick up something .
Useless! HAHAHA.. hais....

2 sticks, one mind.
i've had enough, i'm solving my problems like i always do in the past

Need to rant.

I've got so much to say.. But there's just nothing coming out of my mind.
K, maybe some.. I've never had someone treat me so well.
/possible we're fated? are we going to be together in the future, or maybe this matter will make us starngers? its like a movie suddenly..

I'm in such a dilemma now. So miserable, yet feel so stupid. Then feel so confised. How i wish someone can just come take over my life for one month.

I didn't know just speaking your mind for the first time without phrasing it correctly could make someone feel so down. Though I can be black-hearted and just treat it as if you never appeared in my life before, but there's this ache and sore feeling whenever I get reminded of what toook place yesterday plus flashbacks.
Am I just dumb or what, I dont know.
Okay, point is, I dont know wth I want. Its like suddenly this, then that. A while more later I feel better having none. Maybe feeling greedy and think I'll have both and decide later.
Yesterday got me thinking. Things ain't as easy as I thought they can be. I wonder how that fucking bastard can just walk away like this in the past, no sense of guilt at all. One day made me think so much already.
I felt so dumb thinking why at those times I gave up so much just to get cheated again.
Having experienced how it felt, realise times I've too didnt notice how much hurt one can make to another.
But now, I still think i'm a heartless girl.