c-asselyn

Friday, October 31, 2008

missymissy ..

why did i ever picked up that phone so long time ago . give you a call and asked you out . if your someone with a character that you are never ever gona realise how you'll lose trust in everyone you have , i really wished that i didnt know you from the start . yes , i said it was normal to gossip about other people . but not to the extend of telling every single people you see on the road . ' she's so cheap and disgusting . fat and ugly . she'll be able to do anything you want her to do , just give her a stick ' i felt like fucking you upside down when i heard that . duh , i thought i was someone important to you . it seemed that you've badmouthed almost everyone you know . but i didnt expect you to say that about me . hey , no wonder how your classmates act upon you . i know you'll be angry reading this but . seriously , dont you think your too much ?

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

later gona catch a movie with ng sili . haha

yesterday stayed at home for the whole day . avriel came over at night to pei me :D i've been trying to learn this stupid somersault thing which caused ache all over me , uh ~

dont use words i taught you to get back at me
stabbing people from the back ain't nice
i thought you'd change
but , nevertheless . you got worse my dear
i didnt believe what you actually did
i guess that's just you , naive
you should try and turn back before you regret eh ?

Saturday, October 25, 2008

yen left for malaysia this afternoon with cousin . happybirthday btw :D

so there's not really anyone at home . so mother asked me to bring xuan out . i brought her to bugis and did my french manicure (: turned out okay , but i was careless and destroyed part of it .. lols . the china woman that did my manicure was damn rude lah . i feel so rich nowadays , haha .
ate macdonald with sister and kindof walked around bugis junction . then i went down to tiong bahru for a while and back home

pictures !

tabitha called me just now . i think i'm gona go down lot1 to look for her later . but then very far leh ~


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edited :
all the way to jurong point to meet tabitha and qingshun just now . slack slak , play play , drinkdrink , eateat . money ! home :D

Friday, October 24, 2008

okay , for today ? i went to dye my hair at kimage , took me 3 long hours . turned out okay . i bide goodbye to mother and made my way down to tiong bahru . saw carlito and timmy by coinsidence and went to buy cigg ? then said hello to the others outside tiong mac before going to think tank to get my second nose piercing . i regreted not listening to the guy the place to pierce . the new nose hole is just too close to each other . maybe i'll let it cloase and pierce another one ?

so , cheryl called me and i met jiahui at old changi . took bus 16 down to town and met cheryl and her friend . they looked for jobs around there . sili was at cineleisure so we met them . went down to safra for a game of pool . after that , went down to the manicure shop to have thier nails done . i wanted to have french manicure too , but they were closing already ):

today was fun , SILI . SEE THIS ? I LOVE YOU TOO :D
oh ya , maybe i'll be meeting ahkang tmr !



hello , people . friend. i saw your blog , i've read your msges . i guess you just dont get why i'm acting like this . i know i have my wrongs too , but dont you think sometimes your too much also ? your words are always so insulting and hurtful , but you never realised at all . i've tried and tried to understand and know you are who you are . but , people have their limits too . i dont expect you to like change and anything , i just wanted you to know how i feel . but i guess you didnt understand at all . quarrels and everything broke out between us , i was apologising most of the time . you like to embarrassme so much in front of other people , seriously . i hate that to the core . once or twice is okay . but somehow it happens almost everytime i see you . videos and things are taken , maybe i'm okay with it , BUT YOU ALL GO AROUND SHOWING IT TO EVERYONE THINKING I DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ! wtf , when i said i'm not angry , not irritated , do you think i would admit and stuff like this that i am ? have i ever got angry in front of you before ? you could actually do something so hurting and disturbing that i could not hold back my tears . i've thought many times before , worth it going out with all of you ? or am i just lowering my place and throwing my damn face away . think , how people treated me before and after . your always hitting me and stuff , i dont react to it , you do it more . you think its fun ? you scolded me time and again , i tolerated . you go around telling everyone about my negatives , i jusrt smiled and laugh along . i accidentally burnt you , and you would want to just hurt me back , an eye for an eye ? we've been through things together , but i dont think you understand me enough , really . sorry ? not good enough ? do you all mean it or do you just send it and make a joke out of it . then you'll go talking bad about me behind my back . i really hope you dont . the more i hope you wouldnt spill out all my secrets i shared with you . i cherished you alot as a friend . believe it or not .. i know that i'm always pangseh-ing you all for something else , dua-ing your calls . sorry .. eating your share of food , spending your money . not returning your kindness , now .. just giving up . its not easy to admit that your writing about someone when she asks you , thats for me . sisters ? maybe not forever .


thank you , i'm changing my attitude . like it or not , i dont care . cause i canot stand it anymore , oops . i'm sorry though..
finally ! the holidays are here ! hahas , i went to look for jobs today . all not very nice eh . avriel came to my house . then we went over to changi terminal 2 to look for this man . hard time finding the damn place . he said he would call us up if we're selected . then down to plaza sing to interview for another one . avriel;s uncle then came and fetch us from tiong to eat highclass food ! and listen to his advidce about several things? lols , then went down to carlito's house to look for claudia yongjie and him to slack a while and home .

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

i'm not happy .. i really wished there was someone there i could share my shock and happiness today . i dont like my company , or whatsoever . i cant explain , wont . people who dont show anger gets bullied time after time . i hate it , but i dont know how to handle this fucking problem . please dont treat me as a toy , i have my feelings too

OMFG , i promoted to sec 3 express . haha :D

Monday, October 20, 2008

hello , i'm at home blogging . nowadays really bored . no school , look for friends , slackslack , playlan , bored then i feel like going home already . dont have the mood to stay out late . i want to go out with new people ! dont wana have daily routine , very sian . claudia called me early in the morning again . saying she ran out with school , was very tired so said i'll call her back later . then rat called me asking me to meet her .. and claudia's meeting her later . so met her at queensway . i bought studs :D have this urge to put my tougue stud back . haha
saw aizai at 2nd floor , talktalk a while and he went off le . so went to mac to have meal before going down to tiong and meet the rest . today got quite alot of people , lazy to mention . include the usuals too . theres school tmr ): i dont wana go .. i think i'm dropping to n.a. how ? haha , ending here , loves !

Saturday, October 18, 2008







saturday . i went out with claudia (: she called me in the afternoon . so wen tp hoswee and met her . bought our usuals and to the lan shop for audition again . bus to vivo for some entertainment and talked to lingmin and magdeline for a while before having lunch at superdog's . saw tabitha on our way back to tiong park . met carlito , nevin , zhiwei and yongjie . played catching , lmao . its exciting okay ~ till about 9 or 10 like that , they decided to go back to lan shop while i went home . father ordered pizza :D had a slice and played monopoly with sister just now .

mark my words , you know your still there ..

today , many activities . no school , no point going also . disturb my sleep only . haha , brought my sister out today ! first time hur , cause rat said she bringing her brither too . lots of people went to delta swimming complex today . till about 6plus then we left the place . i think they met up again after going home and rest for a while . i brought xuan home then went to safra to loof for avriel . went to sakura to ate with her and her uncle . he sponser :x haha . we wasted a lot of food , i think . cause is buffet . the after that caught movie , eagle's eye . not bad . and uncle send us home . lazy to go on , i want to go play audition :D haha

Thursday, October 16, 2008

when strangers become friends , they keep each other from their negatives and unglams , then go telling someone else . when friends become bestfriends , they'll start to tell each other secrets , maybe leading it to be known by everyone or ? when time passes by , the closer and closer we get , but still many disagrees . they'll admit about all the craps and gossips they said about each other then laugh or explain out . used to those everydays together .. thinking that they cant get any closer now . but then overextimating themselves , hatred and betrayal starts to grow . cant seem to work this out anymore , bye .

" hello , last time i very close to her wan . but now hor , like fuck like that "

your the best , your good . i'm the stupid fuck , i'm the one whoes wrong in everything . how come you dont get to things i want you to understand . one suddenly leads to a hundred . woo , i'm sad very very sad , but for a few hours only .. then hello new one -.- uh ~ sorry for being so mean .. sorry .

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

woo ~ yesterday was marking day , so no school . i kindof forgotten where i've gone .. oh ya , i remembered already .
met claudia , carlito , khailong , &timmy ~ they called me early in the morning just to ask me to accompany them .. cause they didnt went to school -. haha . so went down tiong find them . played lan a while and then claudia , ahlong , marcus ~ and me went down wisma to get kahilong's phone back .. they very rich leh $$ haha . then claudia's mother fetch us to queensway shopping centre . i got nose studs while khailong went and look for belts , reason being his pants keep dropping . lols . back to tiong , slack slack and home
today , mother fetched me to school . didnt feel like attending last minte . so met sili at dover mrt and we went to woodlands ! ate mac there and walked around till about 10 . and that sili said she wanted to go back to school and hand in her d&t .. so she went back and i went home ..




bathed and everything . Ratikan called me , asked me to fetch her , khailong and others from school . since i was bored too , i agreed . claudia never go school today ): so went down queenstown sec and meet them , taxi-ed down to hoswee , bought what we normally buy . lanshop while waiting for claudia to arrive . then claudia , rat and me decided to go to bugis to get something while the others continued playing there . got back at about 6 . rat went home while me and claudia got back to the same place again . saw simin , esther and weijie at aircon ` haha .


Monday, October 13, 2008

greatest , i'm sorry . i'm the evil sort . how come i dont have the courage to do everything . just another one , i'm the one . i'm sorry / i cant seem to work everything out . wheres the urge ? wheres the love ? what i'm trying to do , i dont know too . you're there , i'm not . sorry .words cant express anything / everything .

Saturday, October 11, 2008

i didnt got out of the house today , haha . good right ? cause yesterday i reached home at 5am .. lols , darn tired and slept till 4. long time since i've woke up so late . i returned to a place of nightmare! haha . i havent did art prep work , howhow ? i dont have spray paint . sian . i dont wana go for art exam leh ..

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

come ! now you have pictures ~ haha . its yongjie's birthday tmr . meeting him and co. to celebrate , hope its gona be fun though ..



science paper suck today , cause i dont know how to do everything. know
why ? i didnt study yesterday ): sad , i think i'm gona fail both bio and physics .

k , enough of sad things . after school went to queensway with sili and josie . ate abit and went to meet yongjie .




some photos for the past few days .






street soccer court with yongjie and co . claudia never come ): cause she's with her mother . got screened by police ! wooyaah ~ haha . quite funny , dont know how to explain .

and then , when everybody's gone home . carlito , yongjie and me went to xiao tian tang there slack . carlito said he can make temporary 'diam' on the forehead with his fingers . then yongjie tried . turn out quite nice at first , then after that i said it was too short already . so carlito made longer and longer . then the mark appeared like some indian thing on the head . i laughed like crazy . haha ! i got the picture . but dont wana upload , later everybody laugh at him . HAHA

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

oh , lovely lovely ..

i'm not studying . for maths and science , cause i'm lazy and dont feel like it today . lalala , maybe i'm gona fail . i think i'm gona fail anyway . i want the holidays to come real fast . one year ago , on the last day of school . me and sili bought coloured contacts and dyed our hair . wooh !~ those days . i miss them ): this years holiday ? i hope its gona be fun . exams sucks big time , but the good thing is , we get to go home early (: . then the day will seem to last really long. claudia's coming over at 4 and we're gona work ~ again . maybe yongjie's joining us later .

leave me , leave me for all you want ! fuckofffuckoff
i'm sorry , again . idk whattodoodododod . lalalala , lets go feefoh tmr

Sunday, October 5, 2008

lets go feefoh tonight okay ? lets go feefoh , tmr okay ? lets go feefoh next morning k ? lets continue feefoh-ing that afternoon alrights ? lets go rcazy shouting to golden heads can we ? we'll pull macdonalds delivery bag begging for some food together again right ? we will see ghost and come shouting " i a red banglah staring at us just now " can we cry and cry pouring our sorrows to each other again ? can i fart right in you face again ? could we laugh at how she acts like a baby and slaps herself when she's in her lalaland ? believing someone will show you pity and comfort you till you get all the attention you need ? then we'll wake up and face all the problems of life once again .. finding thats it too much and start all over again . maybe get bored and change to something more exciting and dangerous . or should we just stop and tire ourself out with something so so ...

or we'll summon all the spirits and gods . beg them to forgive our sins ! those burning sticks , those sniffing plastics that go on for so long . for being rude to others , for being unfillial , for shouting and insulting china men when they did simply nothing , for being ... for being ..

can this change one day , when will it turn back . oh , studies . oh , love . oh , friends . oh , parents . lalala ~ go away ! i want you back i want you back i want you back . where was you , where were you . i thought you are , i thought you will . but nononono , you did not ! you hurt me fucking bastard , i hate you . i'll hate you forever , i never wana see you again ..

my money , my face , my life . please stop adding onto my pain . you , you ! you should be there when i fall , you're supposed to make me better . in what way have i done wrong ? why do you insult me when i did , nothing . woah , ask yourself . the way i treat you and the way you treat me . maybe you cant see , until this day i can no longer tolerate your nonsense . i'll fuck you upside down . i'll insult you like the way you did . see how it feels , i bet you'll cry . this ? start of friendship , maybe .

eating vinegar , somethings starting . but no .. it wont . logic ? no such thing . but me , forget about it though

boo , yesterday chusai with claudia and co . hahas , fun , but not as fun as last time though . me and claudia got to play the xiao shi . we had to wear this funny suit with fur all over . then wear the lions head . when the thing started , we were asked to crawl around and 'play' with the people there . first time doing this , so inexperienced . all we did was to walk around . tried to shake hands with people but ... dont know how to say lah . dont feel like elaborating , cause dont know how to explain and i;m lazy . later gona go work with yongjie and claudia . haha

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

homed already . was out with claudia to vivo previously . she come over my house to spend the night , again ~ hahas , i think she can be part of my family alr . yea , so went to vivo to get her new pair of m)phosis flipflops . then went to mu-ee to check out the lighters and cigg box there . was damn nice ! should have got one , cause now .. i spend finish all my money alr ): sian bodoh ! haha . slack slack around and yongjie came . we went crazy acting like mute people and keeping quiet for quite a long time . lols , nothing much to do there so went to great world to meet some other people . bored , and i dont know what . vernon said he was going down to tiong ~ haha , so took 195 to tiong and looked for him . ate with claudia , went to 6th floor slack . waited for jiande , so on ~ and then father came and fetch me and now i'm here posting