I really need to club. So stress siallll.....
So after Paper 1 for Chinese, spent the last one hour sleeping and dreaming of I don't know what.
Mother says its okay for me to cool down for a few months from school and all. So shocking.
Any news of clubs tonight? Tmr night? The night after tmr?

I'm crawling, crawling, crawling. Cause I slipped today evening.

$27 per month, three of us, sehkahs, /mummy don't want me, dieter don't want me );
Currently looking for jobs, any intros ? (:
Chinese MYE tmr, CONFIRM FAIL. hahahahah...

5th, and last Goodbye

Climbing out, on the way out. I'm not falling, don't want to fall again.
Hold them back, be brave. It'll all be over soon.

English MYE tmr, I hope I can cope. Want to have a good rest today. Made a decision today, unbelievable one. I /hope i won't break down. Think back, been happening for so many times.
Don't want to be the one being drowning in tears time and again.

/I'll miss you, so much .
i want to let go, please....

I really feel like stabbing all those fucking people around me that i hate so much again and again with a knife. Like what the fuck's wrong with you people man. YOU are giving me damn cold shoulders again and again with no fucking reasons. How are supposed to continue. Yeah, go on with all the stuff you can while i just can watch and not do anything. I'm always in the wrong, ALWAYS.
WHY WHY WHY must EVERYONE of you critisize each other over and over again. we split up, get together, split up. hate each other. Where am i suppose to stand now ?
Stop giving me fcuking calls and then suddenly appearing in front of me.
I really really hope you would just shut that damn offensive mouth of yours. You're repeating again and again. Not happy ah, Fucking DISOWN me and throw me out. I hate you, to the coreeeee.
All i can do is tahan, tahan, tahan. I'm gona burst someday!
I'm so confused,
Someone I love and trust so much turn out to be hating me all along.
Right, they were correct two different world, i'm/ useless, belong to the rubbish dump
I don't know what the hell's between us, not progressing. Suddenly felt nothing, then thing you're really important. Why, are you alwasy like that! / b, i can't be myself around you, i'm sorry! i don't know how to socialise, i feel so odd with your friends! Another fucking incident just happen today,
dont want to lose you, feel like i can do it without you, think i'm gona die without you, think i lost out too much because of you, ........./ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! YET I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S IN MY MIND NOW! BaBY! SORRY,
Think i'm gona drop, confirm gona drop. can't climb up like the others can, can't....
try my best, nobody's seeing that, stop scolding me!
Cs, can we back together like last time again. can't you all remember when we could run around with each other and laughing at stupid stuffs again and again. Can we start understandign each other and stop all the hating.

i'm gona die, die! i can't breathe! i'm stabbering! shaking shaky! @#$%^&
don't want to die, i want to start over );

Healthyyyyy Fooooood

Hahaha, woke up today without even realising its the afternoon already.
Soooo... Clawdia, Caiyan and Cynthia at TiongBahru. Down to Vivocity to meet Zairong, Jeremy and co. Saw Francita! Mygod, missed her so much.
Wanted to catch a movie at first but all had Dinner at Ljs' instead. Slack talk and all while watching the sea!~~
Really hope the holidays would come fast ): Hate school manzxzx, I wana highlight my hair.... Either Orange, pink or Red? hahahaha,
Okay, so back to usual place, Tabitha was there. Joke around and took pictures, if only my com's not lousy, could have upload the photos );
So they went home one by one leaving me and Caiyan, Charlene came over, had girls' talk ;D
Home at about 11 :D :D

Another thing, event on 30th cancelled !!!!!! MYGOD!
Cause they can't find any place to rent -.
Wonder whens the next event ):

Stabbed.

So, about today!
Reason for not attending school, some bastard stole my school shoes and I don't have any spare ones.
"Somebody" ah.. came and look for me. Had lunch at Merah's Pizza Hut! Pizza and Baked rice! Walked around to digest and went back home.

Rest for a while before meeting Baby at Redhill, head down to Jurong for prawning? Baby failure luh, others catch so much he caught 2 prawns only. Haha, till about 7plus, cab down to redhill again. Went seperate ways.
Down to Heights to look for my girls! Haha, Caiyan, Clauwdia, Simin and Gladys., together with some others.
Talked and gossip before home at 10plus.

Kay, no school today. Bestfriend is at my house.
Gona go downstairs for meal later,
Post again later! haha

Just came back for selling Walls ice cream. Like damn tiring manzxzxz. Guess what, I earned $10. Fancy walking door to door and have people just waving their hands and we go "Oh, thank you (smile)" over and over again. Like giving out fliers last year and having to smile and say " Please take one (:, Thank you" Okay, point is, NOT EASY TO EARN MONEY!

So how bout taking up another part-time job at Subway with friends? Guess we'll just quit 2 or 3 days later.
Just found out motorcycles can be bought at thousand two, as in that kindof nice models luh, thought was 5,6 thousands previously.
Uh! I'm so bored, don't feel like going school tmr, but what to do? Exams are coming and even better, there's and event next Thursdau before Labour Day.

We should enjoy ourselves clubbing first then studying hardcore at home right? Yeah right, who will believe that.

In need of cash! Haha, will be working with Claudia, Caiyan and Simin tmr at Chua Chu Kang selling door to door ice-cream :D
I still remember doing that at Crescent with Yongjie and co. last year. Quite fun luh, but not when people go slamming doors at you.

Think there'll be an event on the 30th! Looking forward to it! hahahaha

So, went home today after that damn Physics test. Nothing much today.. Trying to fill my mind up with nonsensical thoughts.
HAHAHA , so lame -.

Maybe being sarcastic's okay, but maybe too much of it's gona get really irritating. Like, ohmygod, sometimes I wonder why you're two different persons. So nice and all then suddenly cold and mean the next day.
Nice one, taking the last of my money and then walking away to your friends acting like you don't know me at all.
Well, nevermind. Is it me always doing the wrong things or me thinking that I'm starting to not like you/ in fact, sometimes i really hate you
& Wtf, getting angry over small stuffs, giving me such hurting remarks? Hey, maybe I'm being over-sensitive but you're doing this over and over again.
Now? Trying to snatch stuffs away from each other? How I wish I can just ignore and treat like you were NEVER THERE

Love's so weird, what i always wished for previously did came true, and not what I really want now.

My body's acting weird nowadays, suddenly i feel really active, then i feel like sleeping. After that i get this real headache. And then I'm fine later on.
Met baby today, chat and all at his house before heading to Redhill market. Nothing much to post about. I hate how my father's treating me ):
Just did some of the coursework, think will be able to finish it by tomorrow.

Should i get a job? Or maybe see how it goes after mother agrees to the $100 deal? Haha, just afraid i won't be able to cope with everything if i really get a job.

Been few days since i post. Haha, cause I'm busy right? Oh, anniversary!
Caught Shinjuku Incident at Vivocity with Baby and co.
Lazy to elaborate. I made muffins okay! Thanks for the soft toy B. :D
Have done 'wrong things' nowadays. Don't like the after effects, wish I can find better stuffs to do.
I feel like I'm disappointing people. Hahaha,

Now, there's this one t ing i want to do. Learn to be satisfied! Wonder who in the world can be able to do that. hurhur... Okay, just want to learn to be more satified with precious I have now.

KEEP ON TOK-ING @RUPEEEEEEE ROOM yesterday night :D
Mum agreed after some quarrels. Hahahaha.

So I went home after school to get changed and rest till about 5. Mum came back, gave me money and went to TiongBahru to meet CLAUWDIA.

Happy Birthday Vernon :D

Such a pity I can't upload photos from yesterday. Fact is, I didn't even took any. Rupee Room was packed with people yesterday. Baby didn't came in ):
Party ended at about 3 in the morning. Went to some pub at BoatQuay with Claudia, Eugene and Fire to meet babbbbyyy :D
Reached home at 6 ^^

Its like I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL'S IN THE MIND OF THAT TWO PERSON.
I'm feeling damn frustrated, wasting my time and sacrificing time for my love to stay at home hoping that I'll fufil your fcuking needs. Yet you just keep quiet all the way till the night when its obvious I won't be out already then answering me with a straight NO.Eh, please. If you FAIL to realise I'm trying to respect you as much as i can. Satisfy everything that you want, then don't blame me for not doing so in the future.
Stop threatening me with your same old methods. I'm sick of them already. I can't even have fun in the night ONCE IN A WHILE. Wtf, you make it like I'm going every single day .

Yay! Mum and sisters are at Malaysia :D Quite shocking that mother didn't force me to go along with them.

Next event on 9thApril @RupeeRoom :D Damn excited siaaaalll.. Hope mum and dad ALLOWS. Thinking partying will be different already, cause.................................. hahahaha

Okay didn't attend school yesterday, found out Sili was at home. So walked over to her house and slack till about 1plus before going home to get changed.
Bus down toTiongBahru,met friends and to ViviCity to catch TheUnborn.
After that , back to Tiong park. Went to baby's house, then to redhill market and home.

Back from eating at Zhou's Kitchen with Josie and Sili. I'm feeling damn full manzxzx.. I still can't get why i can't upload photos, all my posts sound so boring.. anyway can go to www.xanga.com/beneathawillow for more info, think Sili will upload photos and stuff later on.

Camp was REALLY BORING for me cause Josie and Sili didn't go. So i begged father to come fetch me second day. watched him fish for about 3 hours before going home.
Soon after I reached home, TIONG BAHRU to meet with friends and bbabbbyyyy ~ hahaha. Mahjong at Jeremy's house and home sweet home at about 12 :D