babybabybaby ...
i'm feeling veryveryveryvery stress now ! help me please ..
who am i to you ? what are we for ? why am i so useless ? how am i suppose to face you , her , them !
something thats suppose to turn out good made you make the worse out of it . making me promise you not to do stuffs that you yourself is able to . in front of me ! you know how my heart breaks seeing you like that ? you know how much doubts and questions i really really want to know ? was i lucky , unlucky or stupid . am i nothing , too good at treating like nothing happened ? are games more important .. take it for once , comes the second time . promising me never , but how am i suppose to believe you ! whoes lying, whoes speaking the truth , how would i know ! i wasn't there , i didnt see anything . were they lying ? i don't want to continue ! but would i regret again . i've been waiting so long for this . but why must you do this kindof things ! i feel so angry , yet i'm not able to show it at all . friends and all , its not fun , not at all.. where where where whereereererereererererererere ,.!#$#@$
its my fault , my fault . sorry , if i havent gone around making trouble . i would be there with you that day , nothing would have happened right ? my fault right right ! why her ? not them , others . why make me look so bad , BAD why !

B : take it fun
C : i don't put the blame on you . just have your own will next time
D : disappointed , what am i suppose to feel for you ?

So many people disappointed me . especially D . to think i actually used my money trying to makeup for breaking my promise . you actually did something so ...
should i let it go , close BOTH eyes and continue . or should i do what's clever and leave ...

Baby said he would fetch me from school today . but that bastard overslept and forget . Charlene and Amanda was outside my school waiting for me at about 12.50pm . so met them and went to our usual place . After that , went over to baby's house to meet him and went to VivoCity . till about 6 , to Hoswee and ate . blahblahblah and home .

haha , see the difference between dead flowers and the ones that are like 'new' ? i'm trying to make dried flowers from those that dearest gave . sorry for not rotating the pictures , i dont know how to do it from my computer .
i'm bored , dont think i'm going out today again . and its only like 12 plus !

i stayed at home for the whole day today , hope that i'll be able to go out tmr ): i miss D .

we did so many things we've did out of fun , temptation and all . people adviced us , said we'll ruin ourself by doing this , but we didnt give a damn . so what ? we thought we were just doing it for fun .
till yesterday , when we were all caught and there's no more way for us to turn back ..

mum and dad , i'm sorry . i know i've disappointed both of you time and again . whatever you decide to do to me this time , i think i will have to just go along with it . i knew you cared for me , but i did things without thinking of consequences ..

claudia and charlene . they might prevent me from meeting the two of you again . i just have to say sorry . i really dont know what will happen next . i really love the two of you alot . we might have negative thinkings of each other everytime . claudia , i admit talking bad about your attitude and all before . i'm sorry .. seeing the two for you cry and all yesterday makes my heart really ache . please dont do anything stupid to yourself again okay ? lets all quit sniffing glue okay ...

baby ... i thought you would have definately leave me yesterday . i thought you would not forgive me already . thanks for everything . i know i lied to you , not once but twice . i dont know what will come next . you're someone that i really really love alot and for so long .. i always kept in my mind , i didnt believe you .. i dont know how to explain everything now . just want to apologise for lying to you and i love you (:

some pictures of the last event i went that was like .... i dont know how long ago

Hello , i'm at the lan shop at ho swee with claudia , D! and friends . hahaha .
Stupid disappoint me . I got into a fucking stupid case , and i really hate my discipline mistress . please get all your facts right before shouting at me like some dog . you're fucking biase , cb .

guess i took i risk ,big one . sorry for not updating :D
i just got home after a really tiring day , waiting for D!'s reply .
school sucks , cause i dont like to wake up early and sleep late , eye bags are showing !
happy valentine all , andandand ... i love you dswf (:

should we give up all we have now just thinking of the negatives ? or just move on remembering the positives ?
adoring people around us , doing nothing . i know you can't get what i mean . its just that ... i feel so confused by everything revolving now ..

k , i know its been quite some time since i post already , here are just some overdued pictures

i know my blogskin sucks .work on it some time later

&i finally completed my coursework ! like kindof comepleted it luh . haha